Ohh, a nice family reunion. Japanese mountains. Festivals. Lanterns. Ancestors. Oh, a boy meets a girl. How cute! How adorable! Huh! We're back to cram school. It's okay. We still got our friend. We'll see fireworks and dress in yugata kimonos. Plus. The teacher is nice and handsome like those boy bands and... wait just sec. What's that h— OH MY GOD! This isn't happening! What the flying fuck is happening?! I didn't see that coming. Nope! That escalated waaaay too fast, I donno what to feel!!!
Monday, 5 February 2024
"Earthlings" by Sayaka Murata (2020)
Friday, 2 February 2024
"Bunny" by Mona Awad (2019)
Surreal, absurd, satirical, and not in the least entertaining. It's a trap book that everyone cheered for and appraised which prompted me to give it a try and see what's what.
I wish I hadn't.
On second thought...
I'm glad I had.
But then again...
It's not even worth considering.
All I can say is it was a love-hate relationship, or perhaps, a mildly tolerant-hate relationship. Sometimes I wanted to gut the book and set it on fire. Sometimes I thought it was onto something of some worth. But mostly, I wanted to just use it as toilet paper.
There are two layers to the story: the literal and the metaphorical. Literally, it's about self-conscious, passive-aggressive, deeply troubled Samantha who is a grad student in an avante-garde school called Warren for creative writing. She's the black duck of her girl cohort in an MFT program as she tries so hard—but doesn't admit it—to fit in with a bunch of 'mean girls' who are in some sort of a cult, who are waaaay over the top with their girly attachment to each other, cooing and hugging and eating everything tiny and cute. The cult is sort of like A-ha's take on me as the girls turn bunnies into human boys which symbolizes writing drafts.
Metaphorically, however, Bunny is about the process of creative writing while being self-aware and self-critical of one's work. In essence, Bunny is about a real-life writer writing about writing whereas a grad student writer is having a block and writing about writing.
The premise sounds promising but the execution didn't catch up to it. Many things stood in the way. Throughout the book, Awad was trying—let me add—too hard to slough off the vernacular of nowadays prose, the overused cliches, the exhausted molds of dialogue dynamics, of plot progression, and came up with expressions that were unique and creative, but, sadly, they came out weird, awkward, and ill-fitting. I know. I know. This might be an exaggeration on my part... not as exaggerated as Awad's attempt at the avant-garde and completely going off the rails. For example, "She is cherry blossoms falling. She is serious moonlight. She is shivering green leaves." Seriously! Who writes like that?! The reading experience wasn't fun; it felt like reading the scribbles of a toddler. My cringe spectrum was maxed out in this book, it made me feel like a spider curling up. And the abusive use of similes was just on another level.
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Summary:
Apparently, this isn't my cuppa tea, but it might be for others. I realized I was not the target audience. That's why it didn't click on me. If you're up for a millennial, washed-down version of Chuck Palahniuk's style on drugs, then, sure, go for it.
Sunday, 28 January 2024
"The Committed" by Viet Thanh Nguyen "2021"
By far, this is my most maimed book; marks and notes are all over it. Luckily, it's a digital copy. Anyway. This book is dense and juicy, oozing with big ideas. If I could, I would've highlighted the whole thing.
The Committed is different from The Sympathizer when it comes to the purpose of the main guy. In the first book, he is a spy with a broad mission to inform on any insurgencies by the American-backed-up South Vietnamese in America. In this book, he's no longer tied to anything. He roams the world wherever the wind stirs him. He's purposeless in a meaningless world.
The protagonist is on a relentless hunt for the truth, principles, for idealism, for something to rely on that is inherently good and solid and unchanging, for consistency. That's why he keeps shifting and changing his beliefs over and over: from catholicism to atheism (because, perhaps, of his pedophilic father who neglected and disavowed him), from communism to a capitalist drug dealer (because of the Viet Cong's reeducation program). So he's an ex-theist, ex-commie, ex-mole, ex-something. The guy, according to Juan Cortez from Far Cry 6, 'got more ex's than anyone's porn search history.'
Throughout the book, Vo Danh isn't anywhere near satisfaction. And it's quite normal because what he's looking for is something akin to a fairy tale, a holy grail, a fountain of youth sort of a pursuit, because it's ideal, and everything ideal is prone to corruption. There's no black and white. "Corruption is a way of life... That’s how the world spins, gives us night and day." He believed in revolution and communism because "capitalism has become the worst version." i.e. it became corrupt. And when the heavy price was paid for the revolution to succeed, he was shocked to see what he's been fighting for turn into what he's fighting all along. "three million people dead for this revolution? We had simply traded one Repressive State Apparatus for another one, and the only difference was that it was our own."
The moral of the story: do not draw a halo on anyone or anything and idolize it because 'nothing is sacred! Everything can be transgressed'.
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Summary:
There's a saying that goes 'If you don't want to offend anyone, don't talk about either politics or religion'. The Committed is anything but politics and religion. So, if you're easily offended by these topics, this book is definitely not for you. Viet Thanh Nguyen has a voice that is powerful, shameless, and unapologetic.
The series is a feast for philoso-philias, a platform for political debates, and a hell of an entertainment show of dark humor and cynical absurdities.
Thursday, 18 January 2024
"The Sympathizer" by Viet Thanh Nguyen (2015)
As the bloody, merciless conflict in the Gaza Strip continues, I became more interested in observing parallels between the war there and what happened in Vietnam. I didn't want to read about the American perspective, but mainly was interested in reading the Vietnamese. Hence, my choice of reading this book regardless of its prizes won and its glowing reviews.
I must admit, I was intimidated by the book's number of pages and how densely the words populated each one, particularly when its pace was similar to an 'arithmetic tortoise', and most especially, when the dialogues were crammed with full-blown musings and flashbacks. But as I went on, I realized I wrongly approached the book. It wasn't about an action-spiced spy novel more than a reflection on the reality of the people living in the war-torn leftovers of a country. It provides a thorough psychological and analytical account of wars, occupations, freedom, and most especially, of revolutions/ideologies and how they embody the concept of Harvey Dent's "You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villain".
With that being said, I can safely say that The Sympathizer is more than just a novel. It refuses to be bound by the perimeters of its pages and cover. It goes beyond, waaaay beyond. This is life (with all its happiness and tragedies and laughter and agony) perfectly encapsulated in the form of a novel. Viet Thanh Nguyen took me by surprise. His voice is crystal clear and strong and, dare I say it, is fairly equal to one deserving of the Nobel Prize. Heck! His voice is a character of its own. (either he was projecting or not). There's a perceptible fluidity in the structure of his jokes and an eclectic fluency in his words and phrases.
The book was brilliant up to 50% then dropped to quite boring between 50-80% then aimed for the stars and became a masterpiece in the last 20%.
There are unforgettable moments during the book where I literally laughed out loud (the poor squid scene for example) and moments where all ambient sounds and lights around me were gone because those scenes were so intense and painfully graphic.
Viet Nguyen has proved himself to be a master storyteller who's able to convey his thoughts in an entertaining and engaging manner, and one who isn't afraid to experiment with style and narration (as long as it serves a valid purpose), shifting from a realist approach to a quasi-surreal one, or from second perspective to a third.
What really blew my mind was the central scene of the raping of the agent. Yes, it's despicable and horrendous and all, but beneath the physical and the literal, there's one of the most powerful metaphors I've ever read. It's all about Vietnam, that beautiful ripe country, and what has been done to her, by outsider colonialists (the French), their 'freedom spreaders' replacements (the Americans), and sadly but quite naturally, by the Vietnamese people themselves (communists or otherwise).
"The world watched what happened to our country and most of the world did nothing. Not only that—they also took great pleasure in it. You are no exception."
It's not about the American/Vietnamese war, about the atrocities committed in the name of ideological purging (namely the rise of communism), or—according to the narrator—in the name of freedom and independence (the Viet Cong). It's not about the millions of lives wasted on both sides. It's not about the Fall of Saigon or the Liberation of Saigon. It's about what such a pointless war has done to the people of Vietnam regardless of their position. And no one can truly see the crux of the matter unless they are of two minds, a sympathizer. That's the brilliance of the book. It doesn't tell you that the narrator is pro-anything. Is he a true communist? An Americanized Asian? A spy? For whom exactly? Don't know. Don't care. What matters here is that when he commits to a side, he tells it as it is. No tints. No shades. Just the plain truth.
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Summary:
The Sympathizer is an instant classic that should be read, dissected, and analyzed. It's rich in metaphors that are accessible to the common reader. It's a story by the people suffering for the people suffering. There are so many things the book wants to confess to the readers, things about art and propaganda, about maternal complex, about wars and suffering, but the central theme is the duality of perspective, to see things objectively. Hence, the metaphor of the main character as having two minds, two ways of thinking, two convictions... just like Vietnam, north of south.
Wednesday, 3 January 2024
"Mister Magic" by Kiersten White (2023)
Sunday, 31 December 2023
"The Only One Left" by Riley Sager (2023)
This is my third book from Sager (Lock Every Door being the first, and The Last Time I Lied the second). I can now, like 100%, say that Sager has truly mastered the art of thriller storytelling. He knows exactly how to steer the dynamics of his plots in ways that amplify the sense of shock and mindblowingness.
I appreciate the structure where the main storyline happens in regular, linear chapters intercepted by another storyline of what actually took place. When it comes to the interconnectedness between the two timelines, it was so well done. I was even tempted to only read the interludes but, for the best, I chose differently.
However, The Last One Left didn't sink in me the way Sager's other books did. Don't get me wrong. It's good and it could be great for some other readers. But personally, the book didn't feel serious enough or rather felt cartoonish enough the way Josephine Anwhistle's house (in Lemony Snicket's The Wide Window) stood upon the cliff, all ricketty and crooked and slanted. And the 'plot conveniences' or 'the deus ex machinas' were so much, the whole thing could've collapsed if one was taken out.
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Summary:
I've been looking forward to this one. It's really, like really, a page-turner with some good plot twists, however mild and cliche-like they are. There are some subjective points that stood in my way of immersion and completely prevented me from enjoying it, but overall, it's an entertaining book that aims to be consumed rather than leaving a noticeable mark on its readers.
"We Spread" by Iain Reid (2022)
I don’t know which one is more frightening, fear of death or losing your memories through dementia. This book is everything I didn’t want to read about in my current state—suffering from a killer routine where days and nights keep looping and looping seamlessly. That’s why I could relate to Penny. Perhaps, way too much to the point where the book pushed me away. Such a shame, really. I wanted to love this one as much as I enjoyed Ian’s first two books. But I wasn’t in the right frame of mind to read something like that. Don’t get me wrong. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with this one. Yes, it’s predictable from page one, but it was a nice dissection of old age, immortality, and the meaning of life and equally death.
Saturday, 4 March 2023
"Fox Tales" by Tomihiko Morimi (2022)
“When the sun sets and the lamps come on in the streets, I often think about all the people living in the city. Most of them are strangers, but I know they’re connected by mysterious threads I can’t even imagine… I think that if I could trace them all to their source, they would lead me to a mysterious, shadowy place at the very core of the city.”
Tomihiko Morimi has chosen Japan’s old capital, Kyoto, to be
the setting of this book as he spins four clockwork spooky stories revolving
around a curio shop called Hourendou and the legend of kitsune as its central
theme. There are magical lanterns, wild parties, rain, a beast wearing people’s
faces, rain, a water-craving monster, and lots and lots of rain. It’s a circus
of a novel—exotic, bizarre, and thrilling. It reminded me of Guillermo del
Toro's Cabinet of Curiosities where a certain, insignificant item
connected to the curio shop can have a domino effect on the lives of the
stories’ characters.
The four short stories are quite independent of each other,
but they share the universe of Kyoto. They are as follows:
1. Fox Tales (4.5/5)
Mutou, a sophomore student decides to work part-time at a
curio shop called Hourendou. His job is basically about making deliveries
to clients. One of them is called Amagi, a recluse living in a large mansion at
the top of hill. Amagi keeps asking Mutou for favors, exchanges of items of
little importance. One item after another until Amagi gets his hands on
something unexchangeable.
It’s my absolute favorite. Morimi has invested tons of time
to build up a kind of ambience that is eerie, suffocating, and extremely tense.
However, the structure of the story doesn’t allow for a pronounced ‘shock value’
since readers knew from the very first pages that the temperamental Amagi was
up to no good.
2. The Dragon in the Fruit (2/5)
An unnamed character, also a student in a university, is infatuated
by a senior student. The narrator retells the fascinating stories his older
friend used to tell him before he vanished.
3. The Phantom (3/5)
Again, an unnamed narrator works as a tutor to the younger kid
of a liquor store’s owner. As the narrator goes to the Nishida Spirits where the
house is, he develops a habit of walking down the intricate maze-like alleys of
the neighborhood. Meanwhile, a rumor has spread that a ‘phantom’ has been
attacking passersby at night.
4. The Water God (4/5)
An unnamed narrator, the son of one of three siblings, waits
patiently along with his uncles during the wake of his grandfather for the arrival
of the family’s heirloom preserved by Hourendou.
The collection of Fox Tales isn’t about invoking a negative
reaction through fear or horror or shock. All what Morimi was trying to do was churning
the humdrum texture of everyday life to make it more layered, meaningful, and
mystical.
To do so, Morimi has made ‘a departure from the departure
from the departure’ when it comes to the source material. Many Japanese writers
tend to take a traditional folktale, or an element of it, and turn it into
something new, something cute (like Vulpix in Pokémon) or powerful (like the
Nine-Tailed Beast in Naruto). However, Morimi wants to return to the original,
awe-inspiring, bizarre, and even sinister nature of Japan’s traditional
folktales, kind of like the Grimm Brothers’ original tales. (Hence, the second
departure).
Even so, Morimi feels that by duplicating the source material would betray what the text intended which is to brush the monotonous reality with a stroke of charm and magic. So, he created his own monsters keeping the spirits of the old in them. (the third departure).
Fox Tales is very rich in Japanese culture and its
symbolism. How couldn’t it be when the setting is in Kyoto with all its shrines
and temples and festivals and rituals and vending machines and the neon-lighted
stores upon stores fighting for space in its alleyways?
One of the issues I’ve encountered was the subtlety of the
theme buried within the folds of the four stories.
“What is the reading of a text except the recording of certain thematic recurrences, certain insistences of forms and meanings? An electronic reading supplies me with a list of the frequencies, which I have only to glance at to form an idea of the problems the book suggests…”
—Italo Calvino (If on a winter’s night a traveler)
In light of the previous quote, I had so much trouble trying
to thematically glue the four stories together. Indeed, there are some bridges
between them, but they’re so shaky and insignificant in the grand scheme of
things. All I could come up with are sub-themes concerning the minor characters
like maturity, compulsive lying, imagination, the monotony of everyday life, the
influence of history and its tales on the present. Perhaps, the missing piece that
could bind the tales is the necessity of the spiritual/magical in our daily
lives.
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Summary:
Due to the relatively long span of its tales and their open-ended
nature, Fox Tales might not receive the reaction it’s asking for. In
other words, it might not be to the majority of the readers’ liking.
That doesn’t mean Fox Tales is not a book unworthy of
reading. There are so many tricks and hidden meaning and even some cunning and
clouded plot twists up its sleeve for serious readers up for second reads.
Fox Tales is all about that dark corner in everyone’s mind about the uncanny and the unsolved that wish for no explanation lest they lose their magic. It’s like Spirited Away meets Junji Ito meets One Thousand and One Nights in the sense of stories within stories.
Sunday, 5 February 2023
"White Noise" by Don DeLillo (1985)
Thursday, 19 January 2023
"Maxwell's Demon" by Steven Hall (2021)
WOW! Simply… WOW!
Just finished it and my mind right now is suffering from a
hangover plucking myself from the immaterial world of the book back to the physical world
I’m currently occupying.
‘Is the world you inhabit right now made more from rocks and grass and trees, or from bank statements, articles, certificates, records, files and letters?’
It’s innovative, puzzling, mind-shattering, and everything I couldn’t have imagined on a piece of paper. After like fourteen years since the publication of The Raw Shark Texts, Steven Hall has returned with papyrus bagful of surprises and is ready to blow minds with this one. It’s Inception meets The Trauman Show meets Being John Malkovich … but at the same time, not being any of them.
Briefly, Maxwell’s Demon is about Thomas Quinn, son of
the renowned Stanley Quinn in the literary world, a struggling drowned-in-debts-and-bailiffs
writer who becomes obsessed (like Ahab and his whale) in chasing after Andrew Black—who
had been his father’s protégé—and Black’s book of Cupid’s Engine.
To describe my thoughts and feelings about this title, I can
safely divide it into three parts:
1) The first part was a hook as the character Sophie
described it. From the very first pages, I knew I was onto something monumental
and full of wonders.
2) The second relied on exposition and deep musings concerning
big ideas like entropy, mathematical manifolds, thermodynamics, the lost gospel
of Q, etc. I was surprisingly intrigued by the science, but the biblical stuff
and the exhaustive digging around for symbols and finding meaning behind them,
well, I wasn’t a fan. This part was a bit of a drag and confusing in a manner that
left me disoriented wandering where the plot was. Luckily, these issues didn’t
pull me away from the book. In fact, they stimulated me to want more of it.
3) The last third was the grand finale, a garden of thorns
full of twists and turns and mind-boggling revelations.
This book is so meta like Robert Irwin’s The
Arabian Nightmare (talking within the book about the book of The Arabian
Nightmare), like Mark Z. Danielewski’s House of Leaves (talking about
the book of House of Leaves in chapter XX)… and here we are reading Hall’s Maxwell’s
Demon (talking about Andrew Black’s Maxwell's Demon). It’s self-referential
like the Liar Paradox, when a book contains itself within itself… and that’s
where it shines when it highlights the importance of the physicality of books
and the creative process of writing them.
Good stories are the ones that trigger, invoke, and propel
readers to talk and analyze and write wordy reviews about them. Personally,
this book is an insta classic that, I believe, it has cocooned itself in amber for
future generations to appreciate what a good story looks and feels like. It has
rewound time for me back to when I was in my twenties, a time when I was truly savouring the act of reading and imagining.
Summary:
Maxwell’s Demon is not a love letter to the written
word. It’s an obituary to the dying physicality of the business of paperbacks as
it struggles to be relevant in a fast-changing world that cherishes ones and
zeros. It’s a Rubik’s box of a novel, a machine, an intricate, wind-up, tick-tock-ing
machine about grief, loss, identity, the breaking down of character archetypes and
the form of the novel… about the creative process of writing books and how
consuming it is.
It might not be everyone’s cup of tea. There’s a chiaroscuro, a contrast, in readers’ impressions regarding it. It’s an either-love-it-or-hate-it sort of a book. The best way to approach it is to take your time reading it. It’s heavy and dense and populated with loads and loads of concepts that may pull readers away. Read small chunks of passages, contemplate on them, and if necessary, reread them, and I’m sure, you’ll find the process highly rewarding.
Friday, 13 January 2023
"Foe" by Iain Rein "2018"
What a grand way to start my 2023 reading challenge! After finishing
a couple of generic thrillers, Foe felt like a breath of fresh air. It’s
simply one of the best atmospheric novels I’ve ever read. It’s profound in a
classical way with nods to the styles of Don DeLillo and Haruki Murakami (at
least, that’s my impression of it).
Anyway, the story is simple. You’ve got your
one-in-a-million couple living on a farm in the middle of nowhere when suddenly
their harmonious life is disrupted by a nighttime visitor who tells them that
the husband’s name has entered a lottery where the prize is leaving Earth and temporarily
settling in a space station called the Installation.
Sounds too science fiction-y? Well, it is, but the story is
all about relationship dynamics along with a bunch of other concepts like
identity, purpose, existential crisis, self-determination, etc.
As I started reading, I couldn’t help but notice an insidious
sense of unease and dread creeping inside me, quite typical of Reid’s I’m
Thinking of Ending Things. The rural setting just multiplied this feeling
tenfold. So, I kept guessing and guessing and ultimately I saw the ending miles
ahead. Still, that didn’t take away the value of the book as an entertaining
and thought-provoking work. Foe represents one of the cases where readers
aren’t looking for actions or plot twists more than trying to figure out what’s
the writer’s comment on the human condition.
While I’d place Foe under the genre of suspense/thriller,
a great number of readers tagged ‘horror’ to it. It doesn’t make sense, right?
But if you put yourself in the character’s shoes, you’ll start to see where
this ‘horror’ comes from. There’s no talk of psychos or deformed monsters or menacing
aliens… true horror stems from the realization that reality is subjective.
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